My first "hard" ballbusting experience ( I got horny and dropped a toilet seat onto my balls)

Hey, I’m a 22-year-old guy. I’ve had wild ballbusting fantasies for a long time, but I’ve never really incorporated them into my few, and always relatively short, sexual relationships, nor have I ever told my partners about them. Even when masturbating, I’ve only ever given my testicles light taps or hit them a bit harder with a brush or a ruler, but never anything serious.

Just a moment ago, when I was feeling horny again, I decided I wanted to change that somehow, so I dropped a toilet seat onto my balls. I went into the bathroom and got myself properly positioned. It was all pretty awkward: kneeling down made it hard to get the right height, my balls wouldn't really stay put on the seat, and when I tried dropping it from a low height just to test it out, the seat kept getting stopped by my belly. Still, I didn't let that put me off and kept going. Eventually, I successfully dropped the seat onto my testicles. The pain was sharp, and it made me even hornier right away. Since I was so turned on by then, I put on a random ballbusting instruction video and started masturbating, positioning my balls in the same spot as before. Just as I was about to cum, I dropped the heavy solid-wood toilet seat from almost its highest point. The pain was instantly much more intense, though it didn't fully register right away because I was ejaculating hard at that exact moment. It was a delicious kind of pain. I collapsed to the floor almost immediately. The seat had struck only my left testicle, tho. My vision started to go dark a bit and my legs were trembling, when I instinctively cupped my left testicle, it felt somehow softer and incredibly hot, in fact, my whole body felt hot. After sitting on the floor for a moment and letting the waves of sensation wash over me, I slowly stood up on shaky legs. The euphoria of the orgasm slowly faded, leaving only the searing heat that radiated from my left testicle and filled my entire body. I cleaned up a bit, got dressed, and stumbled into my room. Every time my testicle brushed against my leg or my pants, I felt that pain again. It still feels a bit good, sure, but it’s becoming increasingly uncomfortable and isn't really subsiding yet. My testicle isn't extremely swollen, but it is a little red.

I did some studying for a while, thinking it would pass by then, but it still hurts. I hope that by tomorrow at vocational school, I’ll at least be able to move or sit without pain. Otherwise, it’s going to be pretty embarrassing, I imagine. Well, those were my first experiences with "hard" ballbusting. It was exciting in a way, and the climax felt amazing, but I don't know if I’ll repeat it at that level anytime soon. I’m still a bit afraid of ballbusting.

I don't want to become infertile or lose testosterone, but it turns me on nonetheless. I guess I just like the fantasy. And even if I don't do it again, I wanted to write down my experiences and share them with you all. :)

I actually don't know how to feel about the whole thing right now.

We'll see how I feel tomorrow.